The only one

27 Nov 2011 2 Comments

by focdeganduri in E pe simţite, Life, nu pe alese, Sâmbătă, This is me!

When sadness comes, it comes in almost every front. And when it comes to love, it never is easy.

Where am I? What am I doing? Why aren’t you with me?

Just two years back we ended ourselves. We didn’t see, we didn’t speak, we weren’t ourselves. Now all that’s left is all these ashes. I look in the mirror and find the girl you were with. I find the same smile, the same eyes, the same feeling and yet everything is different.

You are not here. The roads have changed. The cities have changed. The time has changed. The people around us have changed.

There is a desperation in my life that hints at you. I don’t want to accept it. I deny it, I ignore it. And I end up here, at this stage again.

Why did we have to separate when we were so good together? Why do I have to move on with a better life at the cost of you? Why do I have to tell myself that somehow you still feel the same way?

I know I took the right decision. I know this was the best for both of us. I know it was hard. I know it did hurt. I know I was right.

But, I know you could have been the one.

The one who would have been the best father to my Eli.

The one with whom I could have said ‘I married my best friend’.

The one who would have made me laugh anytime.

The one with whom I would have acted my age- neither more nor less.

The one with whom I could have controlled my temper.

The one with whom I would have been the best team.

The one with whom I would have grown old and older.

The one with whom I would have been proud.

The one with whom I would have feared dying.

The one who would have laughed at my sarcasm filled jokes.

The one with whom I would have made love for the first time.

The one with whom I could forget my worries.

The one with whom I would travelled all wound the world and still wanted more.

The one with whom my dreams could have been on a canvas.

The one with whom I would have woken up with a smile on my face.

The one with whom I would continue fighting and smile by mistake.

The one with whom my looks didn’t matter.

The one with whom I didn’t have to make an extra effort because everything would have been easy.

The one with whom love would have been enough.

The one with whom I could have so many Our Songs.

The one with whom I could go for countless walks and never get tired.

The one with whom diamonds and rubies didn’t matter.

The one with whom I would have remained a kid forever.

The one with whom my life would have had a witness.

The one with whom a small home would have been enough.

The one with whom I could walk down the aisle anytime.

The one who could make my eyes dance.

The one with whom I would have tried to be better.

The one with whom I could think of these things.

Have I lost you? Forever.

I am sad for you are not here. I am happy that you came in my life.

Those had been the best times for me. I don’t know whether I love you.

But you have been The Only One.

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